All about Love
Love —- This word has made me crazy, stupid, wise, strong, independent, wild, free everything.
It’s something I have been chasing since childhood. Finding shade for my fear of abandonment.
Searching for it in every soft word spoken, every shielding gaze turned towards me. From family to pets, from surrounding to own inner self. I searched for it everywhere just to get that feeling of ho,e and belongingness. To fill that void
which is hard to explain. Searching for love even in chaos, in anger.
They said it’s in the way how they protect you, even if it means binding your wings. They said it’s in their aggression, even if it means listening to the words as harsh as thorns. They said it’s in their eyes, even if it that gaze could never passed your skin. They said a lot about love. I heard them, tried to look for it. But I couldn’t find it in any of the dark places, I found it in the warmth of the arms that doesn’t wrapped around me to close my wings. I found it in the words spoken in consciousness and care and affection and truth. I found it in the eyes that pierced my skin and touched my soul.
They say that there are so many kinds of loves, as many people as many loves.
But I roamed and roamed for years and understood, there is only one kind of love- The kind of person that gives it.
I looked for it in every soft-spoken word, in every shielding gaze turned toward me. From family to pets, from lovers to friends, from the world around me to the depths of my own being—I searched everywhere, longing for that feeling of home, of belonging. Trying to fill a void too vast to name.
Love.
This word has made me crazy, foolish, wise, strong, independent, wild, and free—everything at once.
It’s something I’ve been chasing since childhood, searching for shelter from the fear of abandonment.
I searched for love even in chaos, even in anger.
They told me it was in the way they protected me, even if it meant binding my wings.
They told me it was in their aggression, even when their words cut like thorns.
They told me it was in their eyes, even when that gaze never truly passed the sight of my skin.
They told me many things about love.
I listened. I looked. But I never found it in those dark places.
Instead, I found love in the warmth of those arms that held me without caging me.
I found it in words spoken with care, consciousness, affection, and truth.
I found it in eyes that didn’t just look at me—but saw me, piercing through skin and touching my soul.
They say there are countless kinds of love—as many as there are people in this world.
But after years of searching, I’ve come to understand:
There is only one kind of love—
One that only the wise know how to give.